Meeting your old friends after seperated for decades should be like… binge talking, binge eating, nor binge watching. But, the things wasn’t turn out fine. I was lost in thought, sinking into the deep water, like dying. The worst part was, they followed me to the bottom of the ocean.

It was a short escape. Otherwise, i didn’t know what would i go for. I didn’t know what i run for. I  didn’t even know what i did for. Everything was blurry. I saw a fragile in me, in us.

The not so this typically Saturday nite, i didn’t know that should i thanks ‘em or do apologize for ruining the vibe. I thought there was someting missed. I just kept thinking, maybe i was tired and need some sleep. Maybe i was still missed ‘em but the times just didn’t into me.

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7:47 AM

Loving you was like the amber of morning rays, came through those triangle windows in the kitchen filled with aroma of morning coffee.  A cup of your favorite black coffee and a cup of mine,  cappuccino. It never served without baked croissants nor almond brownie i cooked. Instead of watering the plants, you clinged to me like a glue while i was busy with the kitchen stuff.

It was nice when you put your head on my shoulder. It felt like you were sharing the burden you've tried to carry alone. The next routine, we drank our coffee with bliss.

We talked a lot of things like a silly joke you watched last night, my failed new recipe, a stripes bow tie your father gave you, a powder on my pink floral apron, a bunch of dark chocolates you would like to buy me, and how you loved the smells of the sea.

Morning was always our best 'us time'. 
The rays have always been shining the backyard of our house, shimmering the wild flowers we picked then planted it between the unpretentious dandelions.

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12:26 AM

There's a word that i wanted to talk about recently. We might have heard or did it in what we called relationship.

Pernah nggak sik dalam masa pedekate pun ketika udah pacaran, doing that 'ngetes' or 'nguji' things?
Saya rasa sebagian besar pernah. Semacam ngetes atau nguji calon maupun pasangannya, apakah memang benar- benar cinta, sayang, dan sebagainya.

Ini skripsi atau uas, nduk? Pakek diuji segala.

Kalau kata Betty, 'ngetes' atau 'nguji' pasangan ini seperti membuka sebuah kotak pandora. Membuka yang seharusnya tidak kita buka sampai pada waktu yang seharusnya, atau sekedar membuat skenario tertentu.

Jika membuat skenario ini- itu, bagaimana dengan perasaan yang sebenarnya? 

Was it  genuine feeling that we've shared all this time? Why should we do this and that? And so it is, that kind of 'let it flow relationship' just utterly a shit. Even so, we should know our worth. We should know that time when we should stand it ot just let it.

Back then, when we were so busy wanted to prove his/her love, we might lose a chance to love itself. We'll never know when feeling fades. 
Away. 

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2:49 AM

So, i'm Q, gonna take up Nat's challenge rite now, kekeke~

1. Five things you have accomplished in 2015

• Done writing a short story anthology with Nat and others and it's gonna be my first book \m/
• Launched my own clothing line, ITSKYNY 
• Graduated! (but honestly, now i miss college life :(
• Started this blog with a friend
• Cooked more pfft 

2. Four things you regret about 2015

• Terlewatkan tes pascasarjana :(
• Melewatkan beberapa project menulis :(
• Read less :(
• Susah nabung :))

3.  Three people you are glad to have met or become closer to in 2015

• Mum, Daddy, and whom i spent those hard and good times with 
• A new friend, Teh Nat ~(v-v)~
• My bald nephew, who called me 'Ateu' with sucha loud voice for the first time :))

4. Two memorable moments from 2015

• Had the first customer of ITSKYNY
• Pergi ke luar kota sendirian untuk yang pertama kalinya :))

5. One wish for 2016 

• Happier, healthier, and sexier kekeke~ (i think i got Ji Sub Madness)

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7:13 PM

Desert yang paling mudah dibikin menurutku salah satunya pudding. Apalagi dengan banyaknya pudding powder instan yang banyak beredar di pasaran. Simple and easy. Ngga perlu waktu lama, setelah dimasak palingan tinggal taro doang di refrigerator. Bahkan, sekarang ada beberapa pudding powder yang bisa langsung diseduh air panas, dan voila! Our pudding is ready to serve.

Mumpung hari libur, setelah menunaikan kewajiban sebagai anak kabupaten (((anak kabupaten)))  yang baik yang menggunakan hak pilihnya, saya mulai ngacak- ngacak dapur. I called it Chocolate Pudding with Oreo Crumbles, hehe

Lemme share the recipe~

Bahan:

1.       1 bungkus Pudding instan, aku pakai Nutrijell coklat

2.       1 buah Ultramilk full cream 200ml

3.       200ml air putih

4.       200gr gula pasir

5.       2 sendok makan mentega

6.       Oreo rasa coklat ukuran sedang

7.       Koko crunch

8.       Milo

The Steps:

1.       Lumerkan mentega

2.       Sembari menunggu mentega lumer, remukkan oreo dalam plastik besar (better with ziplock one)

3.       Setelah menjadi crumbles, pindahkan oreo ke sebuah mangkuk lalu mix dengan mentega cair

4.       Masukkan oreo ke dalam gelas (bisa sesuai selera)

5.       Masak nutrijell dengan air, susu fullcream, dan gula pasir dengan api kecil. Aduk hingga mendidih.

6.       Masukkan ke dalam gelas yang telah berisi oreo

7.       Tambahkan Koko Crunch dan Milo untuk toping

8.       Dinginkan dalam refrigerator

Toping bisa diganti sesuai selera. Bisa juga ditambahkan ketika diambil dari refrigerator pada saat penyajian, agar lebih crunchy. Tapi saya lebih suka sebelumnya sik. Nutrijell rasa strawberry pun bisa jadi pilihan. Gimana, simple and easy bukan ? let’s try this at home! Buat saya, ngacak- ngacak dapur itu menyenangkan, apalagi saat masakan kita habis dimakan sama orang rumah meskipun saya juga nggak jago masak hehehe. But still, it’s really fun! Trust me :)

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